That 'resulty' feeling …

Do you remember that feeling ?
When you go up to collect your result ?

The anxiety … butterflies crawling in the stomach …
Suicidal tendencies ???

Today were the SSC ( Std X ) results for the Pune Univ … and were of importance coz by bro was due to get his results today …
From morning onwards … he was tensed, harrassed by people calling to ask the results which he hadn’t got ( results come out at 3 pm )
Anyways … basically, he was pissed … it was his first big examination results … and it was showing …

All his crying and self loathing eventually rubbed off on me … and I was taken back to my time, when I got my 10th standard report …

For all those of you who don’t know, std X is the first exam we people give at the University level …
At that age, it is the ‘grand poo-ba’ of all exams … the very feared class to be in …

Anyways, my results were pathetic … considering how much I had expected and how much I had gotten …
I had come home, miserable … and locked myself in … hating myself … for a couple of days, without any social contact …

Now that I think of it … it was pretty stupid …
I had gotten some 81% … and I was feeling miserable because I had expected marks in the upper echelons … 88%

Anyways, the feeling stays …
Just before you are handed your results … you study the faces and expressions of people who have got their results …
Trying to gauge how badly you are going to get slaughtered …

There are only two feelings that one experiences when one peeks at the result at hand …
One of utter disappointment … the lowest you have felt of late … or the sheer exuberance .. knowing that you didn’t flunk out on that extremely dubious paper … or maybe got the grade that had eluded you for the majority of your lifetime …

Anyways … the crux of this blog … is ‘the feeling before knowing
Something, everyone should experience atleast once in their lifetime …
( which we guys do twice every year now … )

And after seeing so many summers, have wisely realised … that in the end, marks don’t mean a thing …
They’re just a crappy way of expanding the boundaries between people … victims of a crappier education system …

One of my favourite lines, which I sincerely trust in such situations …
Everything will be alright in the End …
If it’s not … it’s not the end …

And oh, by the way … my bro got almost the same marks as me … 80.66% … ( I beat him by 2 marks … hehehe :) )
That, after crying the entire day about getting 68% … and he’s not the scholarly type … so we kinda believed him …. :p
Idiot !

2 Comments

  1. Hi Saurab. I am in 10th and I know How it feels, How the Marks are useless, How everyone Slaughters you for nothing. And My Parents wont accept that you, an Imagine Cup Finalist, got 80 in 10th:) Keep goin and hope u win.

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  2. Umm … I might be kinda contradicting myself … but don’t throw the marks off just yet …

    I’m doing Engg … and in my final year … as of now, I have an aggregate of some 65% … all the years combined …

    When the companies come … they will only allow the students with 58% and above … and some even 60% and above … to sit for the interview or the test …

    So, you should do consistently well …
    Keep a first class with disti … always … There is really no use to come first in class or something …

    Just do your stuff and be really good at it :)

    And best of luck this year …
    Is kinda important …

    – Saurabh

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